Day 16 : Under Pressure

I know a lot many of us sometimes spend an obscene amount of time on self-contemplation and self-doubt. Half of the time when we go down this road we end up being more disheartened than we started with. Who wants to live forever in that maze of messed up psyche.

I suppose that should hold true for all of Bohemians. After all the things that we think of most is not of what we had done, but what we had not done. We put ourselves down so bad that we are incapable of thinking ourselves are able bodies to do anything. So we go in following the herd doing things halfheartedly and with the same mimic mentality that original herd-beings live by.

We are not cattle. We are the champions. We are not meant to just follow the lead. If it were so, I don't think would've ever found civilization to begin with. I think all our actions must define our personality. If something that we do feels out of character to us, it is probably because it really is and we'd be better by just getting rid of it. The best way to do that is by following one simple rule.

"Nothing you do matter, if you are not doing it for the right reasons!"

I know we do a bunch of things in our daily lives to keep the people in our lives happy. And to keep free from controversy and unwanted hassle. But do you think that actually helps anything? You'll never actually put yourself into it. You'll suck at it. You'll feel miserable about it. The person you're doing it for, gets a half-baked effort from you and is disappointed at you. You feel all the more miserable it. So in the end, what you get is your equation with someone is now much worse than what it was when you begin with. In the end everyone bites the dust going this road.

Don't get me wrong. Everything in life, everything, is about people. The 'somebody' you love. The people you like. The people you hate. The people you are jealous of. The people you think you are superior to. The people you look up to. The people whom you'd like to protect. The people who you'd like to strangle. Life is all about the people in it. And every aspect of your life revolves around what you do for and with these people.

In the end what really matters is, you yourself. You have to have the heart in the right place. You need to have to be able to do things, say things, feel things just the way you want to and at the pace you'd like to. Don't ever let anyone pressure you into something you're not ever comfortable with. Be free.

Today, I want to break free.

(Yes, today’s post is filled with a lot of Queen references!)

Day 1 : Getting Started

Right at the get go, let me tell you that I have another blog up called An Irony Called Life where I post the usual short stories and stuff. So if you had somehow stumbled your way here expecting something like that - you might as well click here to go there.

Okay, now that we've got that out of the way. Let’s get to business.

Hi, my name is Prem. And this is my ledger. You know, like the ones they keep in a ship where the captain writes down stuff that’s happened during the day, highlighting major events or things that have some meaning to it, mostly just ramblings I suppose.

I don’t think this would be something as exciting as James Bond’s adventures or as tragic as Anne Frank’s. My life is really not all that eventful right now. But I plan on making some changes about that especially.

There was this one episode in a Indian talk show that I saw on YouTube the other day. Some lady asked Salman Khan, what advice he would give her husband so that he can sport six-pack abs like the actor. Sallu looked at the couple for a moment and said sneeringly, just give your husband permission to take off his shirt in public, he’d get them abs. His explanation was that you don’t really get to work on things unless your own ego/pride/shame is at stake. You won’t want to open up your shirt to the public and show your fleshy hairy guts to the masses. Well, that is if your name is not Seth Rogen. That guy seems to be abnormally proud about his flabs!

This blog is something towards that purpose. My way to murder the monotony.

I have to find something to write about in here on a daily basis, and that isn’t happening if stay cooped up in my comfort zone/computer room all day. I’ve got to do, see, say, think something each day to write about later. I have been putting off a lot of things for the past, I-don’t-know, two years (?). Things that most would consider prudent to lead a great life. I guess I got stuck in the inertia of it all.

It is just so comfortable to go on auto-pilot sometimes. Boring yes, but oh so easier. Screw easy now, I guess, who’s ever had much fun by living it easy.

For today, the times they are a-changin'.