Day 28 : The Awkward Dodge

I am the master of all beginnings.

Getting things started comes easy to me and I excel at facilitating getting more people kicked off at things. But when it comes to having closure on any of them I am a slave to bad timing and sheer procrastination. Nobody likes confrontations or awkward situations. I am no different. I avoid them like the plague. Actually there are times in my life when I have simply swerved away from people for years just to avoid an face-off. Most of the times I have been so successful for so long that I don't even remember why I am avoiding these people. It has become so much of a habit now I still avoid being a hundred meter radius around them like a coward's restraining order.

The reason this has turned out to be a big deal today is cause I am going this thing next weekend. And there is a chance that this person might be dropping by. I remember something weird happening between us. But no matter from what angle I look at it, I still cannot figure out what that thing was. We have no actual history together nor do we have a lot of mutual friends. Well there is one. She used date friend of mine. Who dumped her to get married to another (hotter) girl. Good times.

Um. Is that it? Am I avoiding this girl because one of my friends dumped her to do the dirty (legally) with somebody else? Nah I don't really think that's it. I have been around extended exes a bunch of times. That has never bothered me so far. Most of the time I do enjoy their company. We usually join forces and blast on our mutual acquaintance. More to his/her discomfort. Guys love doing that too, girls.

Anyway. This has been bothering me enough to make a whole post in here about. So clearly there is some merit to it. Until I figure this thing out, I think I am just going to leave this note here to everyone reading -
"If something ill happens to me during the next few weeks. Please let the world know, another innocent humble God-awesome sick-as-Shaft soul bites the dust to the fabled awkward-ian standoff. And do NOT tell me what happens in the latest episode of Game of Thrones. I swear I will freaking HAUNT you from my grave."

Day 41 : Imagination

Have you noticed that when you sit silent for a few moments and you mind goes off wandering to some distant shore dreaming up things. How it always seem to climax into the past?

Our mind is an amazing thing, with powers beyond measure. We can live, die, procreate, decimate, grow, shrink, travel, anything inside our heads. There is nothing that we cannot do or create or visit inside our heads. With all of the permutations and combinations of universes and existences that we can imagine, almost all the time our mind always comes back to the past.

We are all anchored to our past. We dream of the future yes, but even when we dream the roots of that dream sprouts from our own pasts. We all want to be rich, because in past we have had felt the sting of poverty. We all want to look attractive, because in past all of us have felt a bit average compared to others around us. We all want to be intelligent, because in past we've been looked down upon as ignorant. We all have our own needs and desires. And nearly half of them are something that we had lacked in the past; or something that we imagined/known in the past.

I wish there was some way that we could just cut off the cord with the past so that our minds may simply go ahead and take us to the worlds unknown to us. Places and sights that is so strange for us that the very notion of them would be exhilarating.

For example, look at all the popular alien movies and books we see. All of them have limbs and eyes and consciousness. Whenever I imagine of alien existence, I think of some specie that do not have a body. They don't have need for eyes to see, nor any measure of right or wrong. They are alien creatures with alien needs and powers. Why should they ever even imagine being anything like us?

In a way, they reason the movies and books make do with such portrayal is not because they cannot think of weird beings. They do, a lot. But they still to sell their product better they feel they need to tone it down. In other words, they are saying the masses are not capable of imagining let alone accepting anything too out of the acceptable limits of unfamiliar. I feel that is sort of insulting.

There is this popular American show of the 70's called Cosmos. It is a semi-scientific documentary series about the universe telecast during the Space Race. It is quite good, some of the graphic might seem to campy by today's standard but honestly I find them a lot more open to imagination than a lot of other stuff we are shown or taught.

It is a popular belief ancient Indian scholars could calculate and predict eclipses, distances between the planetary objects and satellites etc just by looking at the stars. These scholars researched human body and universe out there by just imagining the whole way it functions. The whole science of astrology was an output of this imagery.

I love our strength of imagination a lot. I enjoy the sense of freedom that it gives us. I only dislike the way our imagination is limited by our known world.

Today, I am going to add a really weird alien creature to my horror story.