Do you ever notice that you always keep changing your mind about things way too
much? I always do that. I start out actually having a strong opinion about
something and by the week's end I will be having radically opposite notion
about the very same thing. I cannot really come to be of a strong conviction
any one thing really, especially when it is something of the future.
Do I want to write? Do want to keep doing the work I am
currently doing? Do I want to quit and go do college again? If I do, do I want
to learn something creative? Or do I just go ahead get a master in the field I
am already into? Or do I just quit and go to the Himalayas in search of
enlightenment?
I get so confused with these decisions, what do I really
want to do with my life? I guess nobody really has an answer to it. But still
isn't that the big question, what the heck are we doing with ourselves? Is this
all there is to it? Is this what we are all meant to do? There are people out
there who do amazing things with their life, right? The magazines are filled
with pictures of their accomplishments and great feats. Isn't that what is to
be our aim as well? Go out do big things and get our faces pasted on the cover
of Time magazine. Isn't that THE dream? To be somebody.
But then I had a really good look at all the "somebody’s
that I know/heard of. The famous artists, musicians, actors, intelligent
people, thought leaders, party leaders, mass murderers. A big chunk of them
became "somebody’s only after they were dead and done. Sure most of them
knew a bit of fame when they were alive but a lot of them only came about to be
the legends they are today only at retrospect. I respect those somebody’s. The
ones that are revered and remembered. Ones that will be remembered even twenty
years after they are dead and decomposed.
In today's day and age, there are a lot of famous people
doing the rounds. It has become rather easy to become famous these days. All
you have to do is have a reality show, have a big butt, or just post picture of
a dress on Instagram with questionable color hues. People get famous all the
time. And then people also get forgotten all the time. I can guarantee you, for
example, thirty years from now you will remember Jennifer Lawrence for her
scene outside the theatre in Silver Linings.. More than for her nude pictures
that got leaked over the internet a few months ago. Because that is somebody
who deserves the fame. She has got the skills. (And the fact that she is irresistibly
adorable)
I don't suppose that we are all that memorable. I don't have
high hopes that a lot many of us will be remembered more than those coming in
the next generation, and only a handful at that if at all. But I do think that
if we really got into it at all we are all capable of doing something worth
remembering by. I am an optimistic nihilist. While I agree there is no point to
any of it, we are all just dead people who just don't know it yet. I also
believe that we can also create something worthwhile and enjoy the time
we have on this planet. The whole idea of morals and right and wrong is trivial
but gratification for ones desires or hunger or lack thereof, should be our
goal.
Today, create something out of love, just for your own sake.
